Part 2

COLON CANCER???

So as we are leaving the Doctors office, we set up an appointment for a Colonoscopy, December 19. It was the first available appoinment, almost 2 weeks away...

COLON CANCER???

We are walking out to the car and I feel like I want to die. I feel like my heart is in my throat. I look at him as he is walking and he starts to make some jokes. I laugh along with him, there is nothing else to do...

COLON CANCER???

Now at this point we had not told anyone, not anyone, about what was going on. No one knew. They knew that we had some doctor appoinments, and we were running some tests to figure out what was wrong. No one knew that something had been sent out for a BIOPSY. We did not tell anyone that something had been found...

COLON CANCER???

Have you ever had one of those moments in your life, one of those moments that you feel like you can't breathe and you are not sure what to do? You feel lost and don't know where to turn. That is how I felt that day. The day I found out that my husband had CANCER. I felt like I was reliving the phone call from my dad, saying that my mom had Breast Cancer and moments later, my mom walked into the house and she fell into my arms, sobbing. I felt the same way I did when I walked into the doctor's office and got one of those looks from my dad, that only he could give me, and I heard the doctor say that my dad had Stomach Cancer...

COLON CANCER???

Now I have to relive it all again...Are you kidding me? But this time with my husband? What are our kids going to think when we tell them? How can I look at them and tell them that now a third person who they love has CANCER? How am I going to look in the mirror and try to convince myself that everything is going to be OK?

COLON CANCER!!!